Change Is Good

Sometimes, I really don't like change. I hate it. 
I hate moving. It is a pain in the rear end. But, lately, I have been through a lot of change. 

I have changed my job, and have been constantly looking to increase my job hours, or find a full time job. I have to to what I have to do what is good for myself and my family. 

I changed countries in the last year, and two states. That is a huge change. 

I got a car. Wow. What a big change! It has opened a huge door for me and will be a huge thing for my husband, Long Rock. It is not my dream car, but it is a good car and will suit me for now. 

I got an additional part time job, and this will be good for my husband and myself.. 

I am ready for change this time around. 
What I am saying is that I need this change I want. The change I am talking about is my husband coming. I am tired of being away from him. I am tired of being alone. I am tired of not being able to be with my husband. I need him here. Yes, my readers, change is good. Change will bring my husband and I together and that we will be in the same home. It is too hard with out him. I need my husband here. 

Change is Good. 

Happy Birthday Long Rock

Normally, I make a big deal about Birthdays. Well, my family members birthdays. Not really mine. But, this year, I am making a bigger deal with my husbands. Why?

I miss him and it has been a year and a month and 5 days since I have seen my husband. I miss my husband desperately. 

I have so many things in my heart to say to my husband. Those things are for him only. but I can say this and he will know. He will know all the things I want to say to him and all the things I won't say but my heart will feel. Because he will have the same feelings and want to say the same things. We just for now want to be together and there is nothing else to say outwardly. 

Long Rock, I miss you dearly. Happy Birthday my beloved husband. 

Sometimes, Just Catch The Wave And Enjoy The Ride

Sometimes I just want to hibernate. I like to crawl into my bed and just close my eyes. 

I've been wanting to for a long time. But, I can't. And so, instead I have decided to just:: Catch a wave. I have been waiting for the perfect one. I have been too scared of actually reaching my goals and I realized about a week ago, I have got to enjoy the perfect wave and just ride it. 

I know it is all metaphorically speaking. However, Let me tell you. Over the last few years, for myself and my better half and my kids, it has been hard. Everyone has a hard life so I will spare details. However, my kids have had it rough, my Rock has been having a hard time and I can't save the world like I used to think I could. Sometimes it hasn't been fair. Who said life was??? Life NEVER is fair.If anyone says so, they are selling you something shady. 

Well, I finally decided to grab life by the shit horns and all the crap it is and take charge of things. I want to succeed. And I want my kids and my beloved to also. But for them to, and for me to help them, I must get out of the stagnant calm waters and go clear out off the shore and sit for the perfect wave, and when I get the perfect wave, ENJOY IT and do it again! Over and over until I have completed everything I have set out to complete. 

Baby Steps::

So, Firstt  I completed everything I needed to do to bring my husband here. This was scary and nerve wracking! I will have to write about that for all you immigrate sp0uses out there that needs to come to the U.S.A. to be near their American love. 

 THEN: I went and got my drivers license reinstated. 
Then:: I went to my employer and got approved to drive the company car. 
Next:: I did something CRAZY. I got a car. I have to make payments on the thing. BUT It will get me where I need to go and I will be able to   find a second or third job to make ends meet and keep above things. 

Things are coming into place for me for once::: I am not where I want to be. my biggest things is I am alone and miss my husband and kids more than anything. I know I will see my husband soon. My kids::: I want them to come to me and tell me to please let them come to me. I can not rip them out of school and bring them here. I want that. I want them here. BUT Things happen in the time they need to for the universe to stay balanced. In the meantime, I need to stay focused and thankful, and strong. I think I will enjoy the wave I am on right now. 

Peace Out And Thank God for all you have. 

Deej

I've Arrived: Almost!

I am really happy that I can announce that I reinstated my drivers license. This will help me continue my goals and further the things I have to do to bring my husband here. 
 I put in all the papers that I needed to do to also have my husband come here. I am waiting to get a case number from the U.S.C.I.S. As soon as I get that case number, I will be able to submit the drivers license and I will be able to further the cause to bring my husband here. 

I'm Happy To Announce...

After Months and months of The LongRock and I being apart, I'm thrilled to say that I finally sent out the paperwork to the USCIS for The LongRock to immigrate here!! Woohoo!! 

This is Long Rock and I doing our Daily FaceTime ritual. I can't tell you how much I miss him. 

I'm hoping I'll see him in 4 months. Of course I'll update. 

I've Reopened My Posts

You might be asking yourself, "Why, Dena? Why reopen your Posts?" Well, I would like to welcome a possible new reader. I know you all are dying to know who it is. I don't know a name, however, The United States Government will be looking in on my posts wondering who I write about and mainly reading about my relationship with the Long Rock and his family and my adventures in Turkey. I have no problem with this because I need for my husband to get here ASAP. So, Welcome. Please read, and PLEASE help me bring my husband here safe and sound! (The Sooner the BETTER!!)

I Am Happy, Sometimes

I am usually a very happy person. Most of the times little things make me the happiest. Recently I was on cloud nine because I have been doing everything I can to have my husband at my side. 
  However, I recently also found that I have to find a co-sponsor in order to bring my husband here and I have found myself crippled and on my knees, sobbing. I have had to reinvent my life. Not once, not twice, but, it seems as though I have to reinvent myself over and over. Pressure makes diamonds, right? 

 It is O.K. that I have to reinvent myself. But, somethings I am just having a hard time dealing with. I can't stand being away from my husband anymore. I can't stand not being able to see him and Long Rock has lost hope in coming to America. We are not even asking for the American Dream anymore. We just want to be together. I have been tempted to plea openly to the public and try to find a co-sponsor this way, however, I am just really discouraged. I love my husband more than anything and I haven't lost all hope like he has. I still am fighting for our right to be together as a couple and I am fighting for our rights to be together here in USA because I strongly believe that the American is completely pro- families staying together. 

Happy Anniversary Long Rock. I love you!!

J Family Reunion!

I am so excited for this family reunion!
I have not been to a family reunion in quite sometime now and so I am really excited for this one. See, every year during June and in the Father's Day weekend my mom and dad and siblings get together for a big ole family reunion. There is 10 of us in the family! Only six of us siblings are able to attend, however, I am expecting my siblings, SBW, BLJ, and KJJ I am hoping they come and just visit me. I hope SBW comes later in the July month and can hang out with me and visit with  me and I have a very beautiful condo for her!! (Here's for hoping) 
Anyway:: I wanted  to say that I have this amazing company I work for and one of the perks to being an employee for VRI is the employee discount I can get. My family will be coming up here for the reunion. (Here is in the Ogden Valley in Utah) This is such a great place to be because we will have three condos that are three bedrooms and bathrooms and one condo that is two bedrooms and bathrooms. We got an excellent deal! It is located in Powder Mountain called Powder Ridge. We are going hiking and the snow will be all melted. I am just really excited about it. I will have to write more on what happens up there. I talked my mom into getting tee- shirts and I made a menu and I just made a spread sheet of the very much needed sleeping arrangements. All of this is really thrilling. 

I work for an amazing company

While many people hate their jobs, or like their careers but the company they work for are not the type of company they want to work for, I wanted to post something about where I work and what I do. 

I have had a heck of a time trying to find a really good job. My friend J (I want to protect her Identity) knew my boss now forever. My boss' name is C... Well, J took me to meet C... just the middle of March and I was hired that day. It was just such a good chemistry. I am forever grateful to J for bringing me to the top of Powder Mountain to give me the impromptu interview. 
I was hired by VRI (Vacation Resort International) that day and the next day I came up to sign papers and get my schedule. I really am so happy. I started off in the Housekeeping position. I worked that for about 6 weeks and then they had a position open for a front desk night audit. I realized this is a great opportunity for me. See, I love the company, I am good in housekeeping but it wasn't a position that sparked my interest. I also knew that I would not be able to completely grow the way I wanted to in order to be noticed in the company to be able to move up the way I want and reach my goals. Let's be honest. Housekeeping is the most important in a resort/hotel industry and what keeps resorts and hotels in business. However,I am not going to get the attention, or move up like I want if I am not working at the front desk. I asked C... if I could take this position. Not only will it put me at the front desk but the position was 10+ hours more a week than that of housekeeping. I needed the hours too. 
I am really happy working here and working for my boss. She is great! The company is really great to work for also! So, I am really happy to work for these people! 

Corlu Bus News III

SO, I recall Adding somewhere Bus News. 
  Last year, I had thought the bus situation would be in the news, however, the same thing was happening. The Mayor of Çorlu was still trying to work against the private bus owners (which in Turkey that is 90% of all bus owners) So, getting rid of the bus owners was like getting rid of hundreds even a couple thousand jobs in a city of 250,000 (registered even though it was more like 500,000, however, it was thousands of jobs) 
The Mayor did do some laws, like buses needed to be new. So Baba's buses are new. I mean BRAND new. He's got a few of those now. So, Apparently, the Mayor has decided to have to be re-elected as Mayor and had a sit down with all the former bus drivers and bus driver associations of Çorlu that worked not just within the city but outside the city. Baba has gone to all the meetings and has decided to re-open and re-elect the Mayor. The Mayor promised to restore the buses and Baba's bus company is going to be completely functional within a couple of months. It is good news for the family and exciting news for baba! 
  We are of course really happy for this news and are looking to baba and all of his friends up and operating the buses in the next couple of months. We are really happy for this news. All the sweat and tear that has gone into the operation and working of the bus, all the laws and law- digging, all the arguments of working the buses, its going to up and functioning soon. We are so happy. The buses are new. The Long Rock has tested them, as we know he loves all things new. The Long Rock went with his father to look at the new bus and he said they are incredible. We are happy for this too. 

Next happy news::: When Long Rock is here... I will be more happy then. 

The iPhone Adventure II

Just a couple of weeks ago, I had a perfect beautiful iPhone 4S. I have had it for almost two years. My iPhone has been such a good companion of mine these past years. 

Not only have I loved my iPhone, I must add that the reason for me loving this one in particular. (If you have not read The iPhone Adventure a couple of months ago, highly recommended.) See, my husband bought me the iPhone, and I was in Las Vegas when he did. Because of the exchange rate with Turkish lira and US Dollars, my husband had to buy it in US Dollars. Also, electronics in Turkey are expensive. Then, there is the tariff and customs taxes and fees. Which is as much or more than the actual cost of the phone. Well, I am telling you this because it took so much to get my phone functioning and legal in Turkey. This leads me to the big washing of January, when I was talking on the phone with The Long Rock on FaceTime. When my phone fell in the water. It still worked (this was after it was in the bathroom of the 7-11) 

Just two weeks ago I was at work. I was looking across the parking lot at Wolf Creek Village when I realized I had a friend I hadn't seen in more than 2 years just across the parking lot!!! What Serendipity! ı ran to her and my phone fell out of my hands and smashed to the ground. I say smashed because that is what happened to the back of the phone. It smashed. I mean, to the point of it cutting me. My friend, H (we have been friends since we were 7) gave me a leather case. It is really cool, but it helped the back flaking off into my hands.
  I then wanted to replace the back with a new one, and found one online. Amazon(dot)com is wonderful for such things. I bought me a brand new back. I did not know it came in other designs and colors. But I bought the one fitted for me. It came with a tool and the white back. I switched it out and boom! Done!! I am so happy. Thus continuing my iPhone adventure! (I hope it endeth my iPhone Adventure!!)

I Guess I will Say Something

I own to my mistakes and I have made plenty. 
 But if you cast stones at me, I will have to warn you that I prefer you aim at my heart. Because bruises from stones heal. But words and the way you treat me are not healed easily and sometimes the scars of emotional things although you can't see them, heal a lot more slowly and are more damaging. 

   My crime as of late has been that I had met with a particular person. This person I did ignore the signs and warnings. I feel like such a fool for ignoring those. Dear readers, when someone you meet is off, and you feel it, run away. don't stick around thinking that things will be better. No one knows your needs more than you. And never trust anyone that after knowing you for five minutes thinks they know you more than you. It is not true. 

And so I began to work for this person. My relationship with this person just after 4 days of working for her got from working for person to just weird. Controlling and micromanaging every aspect of my day. Then when I refused to do things that person felt like I had to do, tantrums would ensue. Tantrums became in persons mind that they were justified. They were not. Things said to me as I look back that were of isolation (that is the beginnings of abuse) This person acted like he or she was caring, I worked for person for 6 weeks and I have to say I feel the effects of PTSS.
I have never seen such abuse in my life. I am now back to looking aggressively for a new job. And I am feeling like I am being sorely criticized. But I will get through this my readers, because I can not fail. And I want to put my cowgirl boots on, and strap on the chaps, and get back on the bucking bronco. Why? Because that is howo my Grandpa Jensen would have wanted me to do. And because I need to get my beloved husband here. 

Quoting Barbara Streisand:::

Don't tell me not to live,
Just sit and putter,
Life's candy and the sun's
A ball of butter.
Don't bring around a cloud
To rain on my parade.
Don't tell me not to fly--
I've simply got to.
If someone takes a spill,
It's me and not you.
Who told you you're allowed
To rain on my parade!
I'll march my band out,
I'll beat my drum,
And if I'm fanned out,
Your turn at bat, sir.
At least I didn't fake it.
Hat, sir, I guess I didn't make it!
But whether I'm the rose
Of sheer perfection,
Or freckle on the nose
Of life's complexion,
The cinder or the shiny apple of its eye,
I gotta fly once,
I gotta try once,
Only can die once, right, sir?
Ooh, life is juicy,
Juicy, and you'll see
I'm gonna have my bite, sir!
Get ready for me, love,
'Cause I'm a "comer,"
I simply gotta march,
My heart's a drummer.
Don't bring around a cloud
To rain on my parade!
I'm gonna live and live now,
Get what I want--I know how,
One roll for the whole shebang,
One throw, that bell will go clang,
Eye on the target--and wham--
One shot, one gun shot, and BAM!
Hey, Mister Arnstein, here I am!

I'll march my band out,
I will beat my drum,
And if I'm fanned out,
Your turn at bat, sir,
At least I didn't fake it.
Hat, sir, I guess I didn't make it.
Get ready for me, love,
'Cause I'm a "comer,"
I simply gotta march,
My heart's a drummer.
Nobody, no, nobody

Is gonna rain on my parade!


Until next time, my dearest readers. And maybe then I will have something more to say

Take care. Eat Ice Cream. And Stay Beautiful

Good News!

I am really excited with writing this post!    Over the past few months I have been missing my husband so terribly. Well, I finally have saved up enough to move into my own place! I will be living in a really cute two bedroom two bathroom condo! I am just thrilled. Not to mention this is making me closer to bringing my husband; Mr Long Rock, to me!!! 

One of the things we have to do for him to come is  for me to have an established home. the reason for this is so that I can establish residency. I have to establish that so that he can come

Now on to the catching up. 

I am not working at UPS anymore because that was a seasonal hire job. Well, while looking for a new job, I am working at a cleaning company. To say the least, it is an adventure. I am hoping that I can write more good news soon (maybe that I have an AWESOME new job?!?) 

Until then I am busting my butt. But it is good money and I can not complain. 

The Beautiful views in the mountains. Our new hometown! Welcome Long Rock!