I've Noticed A Couple Things

First of all, I would like to start out by saying that I had a head injury about two months ago. I currentlly have P.C.S. (Post Concussive Syndrome). For those of you who don't know what P.C.S. is, within a few days or couple months after a head trauma, (concussion, for example) some people display either synptoms that were there at the time the concussion occured, or their symptoms start surfacing. This is not a common issue, and of people that have reported a concussion, 15% get P.C.S. what is more rare, of those 15%, very few percentage get what I have. Speech impediment. (approx. 1%) 

  I started about 3 days after my head injury, and it has continued the same, with no change, sometimes my pain is worse than other days. I do not take any pain killer for my pain, because I don't want to become dependant on pain killers. I do take a Tylenol from time to time. 

One of my frustrations with this syndrome I  have is my speech. It is my mountain to climb presently. I get impatient with myself or the situation I am in because I can not express myself like I could before this. I also get more confused, irritated when I am confused, am more reclusive because of my speech, etc etc etc. 

  One thing I have noticed are the reactions I get from human adults with relation to my speech impediment. 

I am actually shocked, to be honest with you, as I thought that our society, with how we have so many "Awarenesses" out there, that people would be less ignorant for a lack of better words. 

Adults are strange this way. They feel like they always have something important to say, when they don't and they feel ike they have to have a quick come back for anything. 

People who are ignorant and self taught, are the people who have never known me. They don't know that I am pretty intelligent, have travelled the world, lived in 6-7 countries, have been on 4 continents, lived on 2 Islands, and speak more than 3 languages, and have a degree in Real Estate Law, and Contractual Reading. Oh well. I have digressed. 

   I was at a University going to a class last month when I apporached the door. A volunteer for the campus greeted me. I answered her. The morning was cold and I was warm, however, the woman who was significantly my senoir, upon answering her, laughed and said, "Sounds to me like someone is cold." I did not look at her, nor did I answer her. I would have, and I would have engaged her in a conversaion about speech impediments and manners, but why? What's the point? The point would have probably helped a child or teenager who she might cross a path with and helped her refrain from being a jerk? Or would she? Either way, I had no time to respond. However, since then I have. 

The second type of human adult, who is a bit worse than the aforementioned adult, would be the person or (individuals) whom I have known most of my life, or at least for the past 6 years or more. 

These human adults are worse because they know me and know that I had in the past, a speech impediment, but since my accident, I have a worse or more profound one. In the past when I stuttered as a girl, I checked out a text book from the Library, that taught speech therapists how to give children with impedes therapy helping them with speech. I read them when I was in 5th-6th Grade, and I know what the techiniques are to helping them speak. 

So, knowing that I have have had a slight stutter, something I have been with, because in emotional situations for they they come back, why would someone act as though they are "Calling you out" as though I am pretending that I am faking this issue of mine. Why would I go through such great lengths (even as far as getting an appointment with a neurologist of this magnitude, when there are only 4 in the U.S.A. that specializes in my condition?) Why would I do that? 

Those people are odd to me. They also must have their own garbage they are sortinig out, and find need to gossip about me? 

The third kind of person is the Jerks. 

They have not known me long, but knew me before the accident, and have had a repore with me. They want to come around me as one person put it "Just to laugh at my speech impediment," and ask me to "say something, like..." Just to laugh at me. I have another word for those kind of persons or people, who are not a lot, but as I am above thoem, I shall not say the word (Also because I don't want teenagers eyes to see the word) 

   I will say this. I have noticed another type of person in this. My family (husband), my true friends and kind strangers have been good. They have shown me kindness, patience, and sympathy towards my speech impede. 

Well, this is an observation, and something I wanted dto openly share.    

Be kind, readers!