I read a quote from C.S.Lewis that says, "Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more harder to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say 'My tooth aches' than to say, 'My heart is broken'."
The human experience is strange, awful, terrible, sorrowful, painful, beautiful, loving, joyful, and full of tears. Time and time again, I think can my body produce more tears? And just when my eyes have been drained of the tears and drenched my pillow, I don't think I can prooduce one more tear, they run down my face again.
It is my human experience. It is my joy or my pain I have endure in order to the be the person I am created to be. It hurts so much, and sometimes I can't feel my heart. My heart is split. sometimes I think I can't even think of how to put my heart back in place. Some days, I don't even think about how to make my heart whole again. But this is me, all of me. My scars, my good, my bad, my being. I am just being. That is all I can do is "Be". That is me for now. I can't wrap my head around all the world's sorrows. There is too much suffering and I can't help my dear ones in the world. I want to. I want to hug every person suffering and going through their own human experiences that are painful, that only the heart feels and can't even speak. Please know, I am with you. I am holding on to every breath you breath and I can only say may you have peace. Peace be upon you. I am sorry I can not remove your pain. I can't remove your shattered heart. I want to. I want to mend it and give it back to you. But, I can say, I know pain too. That kind of pain that makes your heart ache so much you think it is going to stop, and it feels so painful you can only stop in your tracks and you can't think you can go on. Please carry forward. Hold onto something dear to keep you moving forward. Even if there is no hope and you're not sure where the path is. It will come soon. the path will clear away, and you will see it. Carry on.
There are no answers to pain. There are no answers to sorrows. I am sorry. I wish there were answers to the question "Why?" I used to asked often when I was younger. Then, I stopped asking why because I realized, there are no answers to why. Sometimes Why answers are because humans hurt other humans. The other answer to why is that humans are the only species created that have reason and think with reason and they have no morals. Those answers I don't even want to say and think.
I hope you find peace. I hope you find love. with all the pain there is the opposite. Joy and love. with great Pain comes great Joy.
May you, my readers have great joy and peace.
Shanti.
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