Reality 101

It has been said that all the world is a stage and we are all players. 
I have also heard people say that this life is an illusion.
I chose to believe that there is something in the middle of illusion and truth and is where reality might be. At least, for me. 

  Here are the facts of my reality. 

I have not seen my husband for 934 days. But, in the scheme of things, only he and I are counting. 
I have not seen my Anneanne for 935 days, and there are people that could go about their life not thinking about her, or ever knowing her. But she is important to me. 
Another fact is that I have not seen my baba- in law, nor anne- in- law since those 934 days. 
I cried terribly when I went on the plane and left Istanbul, my magical city. 
I probably cried every day of those 934 days. And I will probably cry until I see my anneanne. Because I love her so much. 

Other facts: 
Since I have been here,(back in USA)  I have had 6 jobs. Last year I had 5. Right now I still have two. I did have three but I needed to cut back. 
I have a great job, for which I am unable to work presently because I got a head injury at work, and so I am going to lots of doctors. 
I don't know when I can return to work because I am unable to speak for over a week now. (I have a cousin that reads this::: Please text me cousin... We need to catch up) 
I have more facts. 

About 2 weeks ago, a couple days after my head injury, I paid the fees for my husband to come to U.S.A. I found out this morning that I have more fees to give the government. The only way I can see my husband now, is by him coming here. Same with his family. 

Another fact: Just the day before yesterday the U.S. Government has ordered all Americans not "Critical to the Mission" must leave Turkey, and no Americans are allowed to enter Turkey at this time. They had already ordered all U.S. Government Employee Families out of Turkey back in October- ish... Maybe September. Now, I can not go back to Turkey and see my beautiful family there. They must come here for me to see them. I wish they would come here. I hope they do. 

This is my reality right now. This is not an illusion, because, illusions quietly fade away. Like, the images you see int eh clouds, or rainbows. Those are illusions. Sometimes I wish my life's sorrows were illusions, and I could wake up and jump out of my illusion and say "HEY WORLD!!! IT WAS JUST A BAD DREAM! IT DIDN'T HAPPEN! IT WAS AN ILLUSION!" But, that can't happen. Because reality sets in, and the reality is my husband will be coming, we don't know when still. The hopeful thing is that he worte the government about 5 days ago and they responded just yesterday. So, We are praying that it will be sooner than we think, and he will be here by June. I hope that is my reality. 

My monkey #4 is moving back to Arizona. I am saddened about that. Especially since I really wanted to have a companion with me at the neurologist's visits and when I get tested in the M.R.I. Hopefully my dearest long time friend who never betrayed me, never been a jerk to me and whom I can trust will come with me. We have been thick as thieves forever, and that will never change. 

Still, reality is that most people here in U.S.A. and have never been outside of the U.S.A. will never see life the way it really is. They will get a beautiful picture of what they think they know, and that is fine. But, as for me, my life will ever be changed. And, now, a new journey... I think India is calling my name. My husband and I will see. (and We will take monkey 5 with us)