Just What I need:: Good News

You read the title right. 
In order to get my husband here (Long Rock) I have had to go through quite a bit. Well, I paid all the necessary things I needed to pay for, and I then spoke with an N.S.C. agent. He thinks because of my condition, I have a good possibility of bringing my husband here. I am really happy about that. So I have some extra form to fill out, which bring me to another good news. 
   I was accepted to see a Doctor who is a neurologist at UofU Medical Center. I am really happy baout this as there are only four in the U.S.A. with this knowledge of my problem, and I am happy to be close enough to be able to get in. I am really happy. I think it might take another few weeks when I get the appointment. But of all the neurological conditions, this Neurologist only take 20% of the paitents that are requested. To visit him. So, of all the people that are reported to have a concussion, 15% of those people suffer with PCS (Post Concussive Syndrome) of those 15% only about 1% are deeply effected by speech, continuing concussion symptoms, etc etc. My head was hit on the cerebral cortex (left side). So, that is where emotions, speech, body tempurature, and parts of speech is located. I hope this gets taken care of soon. By the by, I have been on the computer for 15 minutes, and my head is hurting again. I will have to do an update later.
To all my readers out there, Take care of your selves and I will update some more on what is going on in Turkey, my husband coming and anything else. 
Nameste

I Want To Say

I am humbled and grateful for each and everyone of you who read my blog. 
I have now over 8,000 viewers a month. As I said in my biography, I am not really interesting. But, I love every one of you for reading my blog. I am interested in your world, your views, your struggles, your joys. Because They are mine, too. I mean this with all my heart. 
I am really grateful for all my wonderful readers who come on to browse my blogs. 

 Because of all of you, I will blog more. I have so much to say, and I hope Long Rock gets here so I can speak more freely of the struggles and Misconsceptions of Turkey and the Middle East. 
I want to speak the truth about Syria and the conflict there. I want to share with you the "Arab Spring" that had been taking place whilst I was in Turkey. I want to share so many things. Alas, some of these things will have to wait. Mainly because of my concussion complications  I must not be on the computer so much. 

Well, My Dear Readers, I love you and Thank you for allowing me to share my life with you. 
Keep the reading up and Iw ll keep up the blogging!!! 

Loves and Hugs... ALOHA

Facebook Detox:: For Good!!

I have been on this all balanced life changing mental, emotional, psychological and physical healthy life change way of life. 
  One thing I have noticed, and I say this seriously, I find nothing good that comes out of Facebook.
I used it as a took to keep up with people I have not been able to whilst in Turkey. My husband two years ago went off, and I have decided to follow suit. There are too many people that are too immature and are borderline psycho on the internet, and base their friendship on what is happening to themselves on Facebook. They will even base their friendships on Facebook. People will post things and looks constantly for some kind of reassurance that they are validated by the number of "likes" they get, and now they have the ever stupid other emotions on Facebook. I know if someone who I care about or cares about me, I can text them, they can text me, and I can get ahold of them through other means. They know how to reach me if they really want to. 

The other thing about Facebook is that there is nothing good that comes with it. 
Case in point:: I know a person who was friends with me for years. Person has problems and, yet, went on my Facebook account and added all these people that I have known since High School, people this person has never met face to face. This person has big problems which I will not get into, but, had gone onto Facebook to start a smear campaign against me. REALLY??? This my Dear Readers is called Cyber Bullying. (and border line stalking) because said person was angry at me. Of course there are two sides to every story, and my side is without going into great detail, had betrayed me and my trust continually for the last 2 years. This is not an exaggeration. I am so tired of person's garbage, I had enough. I was horribly sad, but, when person ended the friendship, not me, person resorted to going on Facebook and, I ended up thinking, Ok, years ago before Facebook, would person had gone through the telephone book and called everyone in the book to talk about me and slander me? No, because that would be crazy. So, what is the difference between that and Facebook? Facebook is also very out-dated. It is the Myspace of Social Media. Reddit is the thing now but dont get me started. I think the best thing to do is to stay away from Facebooka nd Twitter and all that stupid stuff, and go back to to a more classier time. Get off Facebook and have real conversations with people who are really your friend. Spend time with family, do healthy living by meditation, studying other cultures and places. Write a blog. Do a Vlog. Don't do Facebook if you want to improve yourself. 

There it is. I am off for good and it is liberating. 
And I cleaned out the closet... That was liberating too. 
That story will be for another time and when it is approriate. But let's just say... Toxic relationships are to be flushed down the toilet where they belong. (Healthy choice tip number 3)
Ciao for now!

Dear Mr Erdoğan, Again

Mr Prime Minister, I have been silenced too long. I have been sitting here patiently in a small village in U.S.A. waiting for my husband and his family to come here. But, I have come to realize that I must speak up. I must do so because your own people, the Turkish people can't. 

yes, you have a lot of people who praise you. I don't know how much you pay them, but it must be a lot of money, being that you have stolen from the Turkish Citizens for years. Billion of dollars, is what journalists have said (wait, they are now quieted in your prisons.) 

  I want so very much to be kind to you. I in fact, have been until May 14,2014. I can't think you can jusitfy what happened to the minors by pumping concrete into the mine instead of giving them some hope of relief. You could have had Germany's engineers come in and Help. But you are a despicable man for that one reason. 

But then you made some other bad choices. 

You put in prison hundreds of your own Military... Over a conspiracy theory. The only theory I can come up with is that you, Prime Minister, are a coward. 

You claim Ayran is the drink of Turkey, and that was just funny. Why not Rakı? because it is alcoholic?

You said your son had lots of gold from a wedding... Come to find out the golds and the money was embezzeled from none other than you. 

You rage war against Kurds... And your wife is Kurd. Does she have sociopathic tendencies? It this why she doesn't care that her own pople are falling victims to your sword? 

You claimed that ISIL (real name Da'esh!) bombed the streets of Ankara, killing 125 people and injuring dozens more. Yet, the name you gave, had no record. Then the Turkish Journalist (who is now in prison::: for finding the truth) found out that YOU were the one that was behind the bombing. 

Since you were reelected in a botched and paid election that you paid people to travel and revote for you::: hundreds of times over... Meaning you are in power like Kim Jong- iL, just out of default and if anyone crosses you, you will kill them or throw them in jail (communist much?) I know you think you can get away with all of this. But God knows. God is All Knowing. And you will have to answer to him. 

Other malfeasances:

Making girls wear the Hijab to school and public places. 

Allowing poor farming girls to marry men, although you say you condem this action, you refuse to throw the men in jail 

Not firing the teacher who said "girls who don't wear the veil should be raped"

Gezi Park was never about a Park, and you know it. Ordering hundreds sof non-violent protestors to be burned while they slept::: that was cowardly. 

You mentioned, Prime Minister, that you want to be as famous and 'big' as Aldof Hitler. I think you have exceeded your expectations of yourself and are more like him than you realize (no, sir, this is not a compliment, it is meant to be an insult, and I hope it worked) 

You need to step down. Turkey will be much better without you, and your awful austentatious wife. Did you know the sentiment of your own country is "You're in America? STAY THERE And DON'T come back!!"

Well, sir, we don't want you here either. 

Now, go lick your wounds in a corner, quietly, while I try to get my husband here fast. And if you try something Dirty to throw him in Prison, I will be watching you. I have more connections than you think. 

 

Please Vishnu...

Last weekend was Holi. Holi is celebrated on the full moon in the Hindu month of Phalguna (early March). It celebrates Spring. In many parts of India, it is celebrated for 16 days. 

According to Hindu Mythology, Holi comes form the word Holika, the evil demon sister of Hiranyakashipu. He was a king, the King of Multan. King Hiranyakashipu earned a boon that made him indestructable. He grew arrogant, and thought he was God, and demanded everyone worship only him. 

The King's own son, Prahlada, disagreed. He remained devoted to Lord Vishnu. This made King Hiranyakashipu infuriated He subjected Prahlada to punishments and cruelty, none affected his son, nor did he change and worship his father. He continued to worship Lord Vishnu. One day, Holika tricked Prahlada into sitting with her in a fire. She was protected from the fire, but Prahlada was not. She was wearing a cloak that made her immune to the fire. As the fire roared, it encased Holika and the cloack flew from the flames and covered Prahlada, who survived while Holika burned to ashes. Seeing this the King was unable to control his temper and smashed a pillar with his mace. There was a thunderous sound and Lord Vishnu appeared as Lord Narasimha, and killed King Hiranyakashipu. 

The bon fire is symbolic victory over good and evil, and colored powder is also used to celebrate Holi. 

So, I ask Vishnu. Since it is  well after Holi (Phagwah), can we please not have anymore snow? 

Zaha Hadid

Here is a name you haven't heard. Zaha Hadid. 

Her full name is Dame Zaha Muhammad Hadid. 

She was born in Baghdad, Iraq on 31st of October 1950. Her father, the co-founder of the Iraqi Nationanl Party. Her mother, an artist. 

Zaha is ahead of her time. She will always be. She created magnificent bridges, buildings and art centers. She taught at the Harvard School of Design, was a guest professor at the Institue of Architecture at the University of Applied Arts of Vienna, and she was the first woman, and first Muslim to earn the prestigious Pritzker Architecture Prize. She also earned many other awards for her work. In 2007 she was ranked  69th on the Forbes list of "World's 100 Most Powerful Women". She will be greatly missed by the lives she effected with her beautiful designs. 

  The above image is her design. It is the Art Center in Abu Dhabi. 

She also designed a bridge in U.A.E. as well. She is known for her opened designs which look like water.

Why do I mention her today? 
Dame Zaha Muhammad Hadid passed away. May she rest in peace.  

Reality 101

It has been said that all the world is a stage and we are all players. 
I have also heard people say that this life is an illusion.
I chose to believe that there is something in the middle of illusion and truth and is where reality might be. At least, for me. 

  Here are the facts of my reality. 

I have not seen my husband for 934 days. But, in the scheme of things, only he and I are counting. 
I have not seen my Anneanne for 935 days, and there are people that could go about their life not thinking about her, or ever knowing her. But she is important to me. 
Another fact is that I have not seen my baba- in law, nor anne- in- law since those 934 days. 
I cried terribly when I went on the plane and left Istanbul, my magical city. 
I probably cried every day of those 934 days. And I will probably cry until I see my anneanne. Because I love her so much. 

Other facts: 
Since I have been here,(back in USA)  I have had 6 jobs. Last year I had 5. Right now I still have two. I did have three but I needed to cut back. 
I have a great job, for which I am unable to work presently because I got a head injury at work, and so I am going to lots of doctors. 
I don't know when I can return to work because I am unable to speak for over a week now. (I have a cousin that reads this::: Please text me cousin... We need to catch up) 
I have more facts. 

About 2 weeks ago, a couple days after my head injury, I paid the fees for my husband to come to U.S.A. I found out this morning that I have more fees to give the government. The only way I can see my husband now, is by him coming here. Same with his family. 

Another fact: Just the day before yesterday the U.S. Government has ordered all Americans not "Critical to the Mission" must leave Turkey, and no Americans are allowed to enter Turkey at this time. They had already ordered all U.S. Government Employee Families out of Turkey back in October- ish... Maybe September. Now, I can not go back to Turkey and see my beautiful family there. They must come here for me to see them. I wish they would come here. I hope they do. 

This is my reality right now. This is not an illusion, because, illusions quietly fade away. Like, the images you see int eh clouds, or rainbows. Those are illusions. Sometimes I wish my life's sorrows were illusions, and I could wake up and jump out of my illusion and say "HEY WORLD!!! IT WAS JUST A BAD DREAM! IT DIDN'T HAPPEN! IT WAS AN ILLUSION!" But, that can't happen. Because reality sets in, and the reality is my husband will be coming, we don't know when still. The hopeful thing is that he worte the government about 5 days ago and they responded just yesterday. So, We are praying that it will be sooner than we think, and he will be here by June. I hope that is my reality. 

My monkey #4 is moving back to Arizona. I am saddened about that. Especially since I really wanted to have a companion with me at the neurologist's visits and when I get tested in the M.R.I. Hopefully my dearest long time friend who never betrayed me, never been a jerk to me and whom I can trust will come with me. We have been thick as thieves forever, and that will never change. 

Still, reality is that most people here in U.S.A. and have never been outside of the U.S.A. will never see life the way it really is. They will get a beautiful picture of what they think they know, and that is fine. But, as for me, my life will ever be changed. And, now, a new journey... I think India is calling my name. My husband and I will see. (and We will take monkey 5 with us)