Sometimes, Just Catch The Wave And Enjoy The Ride

Sometimes I just want to hibernate. I like to crawl into my bed and just close my eyes. 

I've been wanting to for a long time. But, I can't. And so, instead I have decided to just:: Catch a wave. I have been waiting for the perfect one. I have been too scared of actually reaching my goals and I realized about a week ago, I have got to enjoy the perfect wave and just ride it. 

I know it is all metaphorically speaking. However, Let me tell you. Over the last few years, for myself and my better half and my kids, it has been hard. Everyone has a hard life so I will spare details. However, my kids have had it rough, my Rock has been having a hard time and I can't save the world like I used to think I could. Sometimes it hasn't been fair. Who said life was??? Life NEVER is fair.If anyone says so, they are selling you something shady. 

Well, I finally decided to grab life by the shit horns and all the crap it is and take charge of things. I want to succeed. And I want my kids and my beloved to also. But for them to, and for me to help them, I must get out of the stagnant calm waters and go clear out off the shore and sit for the perfect wave, and when I get the perfect wave, ENJOY IT and do it again! Over and over until I have completed everything I have set out to complete. 

Baby Steps::

So, Firstt  I completed everything I needed to do to bring my husband here. This was scary and nerve wracking! I will have to write about that for all you immigrate sp0uses out there that needs to come to the U.S.A. to be near their American love. 

 THEN: I went and got my drivers license reinstated. 
Then:: I went to my employer and got approved to drive the company car. 
Next:: I did something CRAZY. I got a car. I have to make payments on the thing. BUT It will get me where I need to go and I will be able to   find a second or third job to make ends meet and keep above things. 

Things are coming into place for me for once::: I am not where I want to be. my biggest things is I am alone and miss my husband and kids more than anything. I know I will see my husband soon. My kids::: I want them to come to me and tell me to please let them come to me. I can not rip them out of school and bring them here. I want that. I want them here. BUT Things happen in the time they need to for the universe to stay balanced. In the meantime, I need to stay focused and thankful, and strong. I think I will enjoy the wave I am on right now. 

Peace Out And Thank God for all you have. 

Deej