Another Year

Another year is coming up fast. 

 It is usually a time of excitement for me as I love to write goals and accomplish them. 

This is the first year I have not wished for the New Year to come and even, have wished that I would have been able to find a Time Portal to go back and slow down time and kind of make better plans. 

   It is no secret that this last month is the first time in years I have admitted openly I am going through a hard time. 

 Normally, I rebound so fast and bounce back. I think that somewhere over the last couple of years, I have lost my rebounding tactics. I am normally really a positive thinker and proactive in getting things done, to. 

 Why is it that these past few years I have not been able to not only accomplish what I set out to do, but no matter how hard I try and no matter how much I do working towards a goal, things are just not going my way?

     How much in life does one person have to experience before they can just sit down in the snow and say, "I have had enough learning to do, I can not be stretched more thin"

Do you remember in the early 1980's they had a toy doll that the younger boys would play with? You could pull and stretch him and he would bend but he would go back to normal shape? 

I just keep wondering when I will no longer be pulled like that doll anymore. 

  I think I will write more later.