My mind is full

I have been a deep thinker all my life. Sometimes to a fault. Sometimes my thinking gets the best of me and other times it brings out the worst in me. 

 Either way, I have so many things in my mind. I feel like my brain is full. 

 My head hurts from all the thoughts swimming and the deep thinking. Literally. Hurts.

I have great ideas. 

I do not know how to fully articulate them always because it is too hard to put into words

I then get distracted easily and, I lose confidence in myself

I have about 100 things going on the same time. 

Does anyone feel or do the same? 

I can not focus sometimes and when I do, I feel like I have to do something else. 

Sometimes when I focus on one thing for very long, I feel like I had been drinking coffee and my mind is drained. 

I wish someone felt the same way I did and understands what is going on and can explain it to me in simple terms. 

Do I have Adult ADHD? Adult ADD?  Am I normal? Does everyone feel this way? 

I feel like I think so much, I get exhausted. Sometimes I sleep for days and other times I can not sleep at all. 

I mean, AT. ALL. 

No, I do not drink and no I do not take drugs. I drink lots of water, and I drink coffee sometimes. 

If I drink too much coffee I get a stomach ache and when I drink one cup, I get so sleepy. If I drink more than one I just want to sleep. 

I am also so so so tired in the winter time I can not stand it and in the summer time I am over bounding with energy. 

 IF I were an animal I would want to be an American Brown Grizzly Bear because they hibernate in the winter. And they are tough. And they can eat honey straight from the trees and the bee stingers do not hurt them. And they are wise. 

I feel restless now, and tired at the same time. 

It is 9 pm and I am going to bed now. The sky is black outside and it is cold. I feel warm and safe in my bed. 

Good night world

Even as a little baby I loved my bed. I would just hang out here. I felt safe and warm.